i’m just going to point something out that my ‘friends’ do all the time.

i go to text someone something and they dont respond for half week while i sit and watch them have conversations with other people on facebook.

or i will get in a conversation with someone and then i expell too much information or too many opinions in one message or whatever and then get no responce until THEY start a new conversation days later.

is it because i said so much that you couldn’t think of anything to say?

or is it because you just don’t care about what i have to say to the point where you would rather just ignore me until you have a new conversation that you can let me kill?

because it happens alot with the people that i tend to consider far more creative than myself. the ones who are always ALWAYS doing actually good creative work while i am producing garbage.

but in these conversations where they just don’t respond its weird because i can sit there and think of tons of responces to what i’ve said, no matter how much it is i’ve said.

and i don’t think its a matter of my texts not getting sent properly, on account of it always happens when i am not home and then when i am home, where i have very poor service, is when people want to text me, if they text me at all.

and it certainly isn’t a situation where a wall post or reply isn’t sent online because that doesn’t happen. you either send something or you don’t and when its in an established conversation, its VERY unlikely that you’ve accidentally sent it to the wrong person. right? RIGHT?

well anyway, that’s just another of my countless rants about how people don’t like me.

that’s what this blog is now by the way. just me talking about how people don’t like me. i’m no longer posting “music” i’ve made or drawings i’ve done or pictures i’ve taken or gifs from shows i’m watching.

i’m done with that. i’m just going to post these things until everyone unfollows me.

then i’m gonna buy 10 bottles of Robitussin and see how that goes and post results if i’m able to.

because besides the occasional people trying to “talk me down” or “cheer me up” no one seems to want to talk to me for very long about actual topics that we share interest in. i don’t have friends here, i post my attempts on tumblr, and my friends in california are ulitmately pre-occupied with their cool lives to worry about what a friend who is a thousand miles away wants to talk about.

finally, if i have EVER just not responded in a conversation for days, let me know and i will try to explain what happened and apologize, but i mean, its not like anybody cares if i’ve ever done that anyway. so forget it.